2200 Blues Chapter 53: Part One

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Guilt wracked Nickel for the next few days. While the Thraíha were agitated about the strange visitor who had happened upon their settlement, he was consumed by his conversation with Steve. He spent hours sobbing in a rock crevice within the rocks surrounding the Thraíha temple.

The shock, disappointment, heartbreak, anger, outrage, and immense guilt over how he’d yelled at Steve—the man who was the reason Nickel was still alive after crash landing in the Desolate Canyons—flooded him, all on the day Nickel had been initiated as a Thraíha. It all felt like a cruel joke.

The rigor of the Thraíha lifestyle started to feel cumbersome beyond its usual difficulties. While waiting for the next hunt, he was tasked with many of the same activities as before. He could barely keep his mind off his conversation with Steve, regretting how it had quickly turned from a sweet and warm reunion to an uncomfortable and ultimately tragic falling out.

Steve was the adult he could count on to know about the canyons, about Hedonim, and the world around them. He was someone who’d seen more of the canyons and knew about the world. Nickel was now surrounded by adults of the Thraíha who only knew the world through the lens of their culture, of magic and spirits. Nickel had no doubt that magic and spirits existed. He’d had enough experience with visitors to know that. At this point, he knew it wasn’t simply mirages in the fog, as Steve had once explained to him. Though, it might be that in part. That was the point—Nickel didn’t know where the effects of the orange radiation from the nuclear power plants began and the magic apparitions ended. And Steve was the only adult he’d met here—the only person he’d met in the canyons who’d seen much of it, who knew the former, who was from the Past World, as the Thraíha would put it. And Nickel had insulted him, enraged him, and stormed out of his own hut.

When Nickel returned from the rocks surrounding the temple, Steve was nowhere to be found in Nickel’s sleeping hut. Nickel didn’t see Steve anywhere else, but he didn’t bother to ask anyone about his whereabouts.

It didn’t matter because no one asked Nickel about Steve’s whereabouts either. He was long gone, and the times when Nickel had run into Farrul again, nothing was mentioned. Feeling uneasy about facing Farrul after their confrontation at the top of the temple, and his falling out with Steve, Nickel dreaded a confrontation or greater disliking from Farrul. To his surprise, Farrul hadn’t said anything about either of those things to Nickel. He’d shown no potential conflict with Nickel. He had shown his usual ambivalence and a greater sense of disinterest. He’d always been difficult to figure out or discern. Though, he was sleeping in a different hut than Nickel. He’d been told by Akela that Farrul wanted to reside closer to the farm now that he was tasked with more agricultural duties. Though, Nickel couldn’t help but wonder if that was due in part to an aversion to Nickel on Farrul’s part. A way to avoid him without facing him for his perceived slights or misdemeanors. In fact, was Farrul’s greater disinterest in talking to Nickel that—

Thraxxa, for Father Hawk’s sake!”

Nickel whirled around to face Luvele, the caretaker of the kupernacle garden. She was glowering at him as she stooped over a pair of bladed stone shears, surrounded by rogue plants that she had been shredding. They were invading plants, different from the kupernacle leaves lined up ahead of her and in the bed where Nickel knelt.

Luvele was a stout woman in her later middle ages. She had a round face with curling black hair, cut short to help her travel in the muck around the overgrown algae and wilderness outside of the Thraíha settlement. She was covered in brown Thraíha overalls and had large beady eyes that seemed to watch everything under and in between the plants of the garden, kupernacle or not.

“Sorry?” Nickel called, raising his eyebrows. That word seemed to be what he was owing the most these days.

“Boy, you’ve barely been cutting your share of the leaves!” Luvele shouted at him.

“Huh,” Nickel muttered, looking down at his hands. His stone blade was hanging limp from his palm in the dirt where he’d cut the last kupernacle leaf to the right several minutes ago.

“What are you daydreaming about?” Luvele asked in her high-pitched voice.

“Oh, nothing,” Nickel said, staggering to his feet. He picked up the blades he was using before, holding them at his sides. He looked around, tracking where he would begin cutting away at the leaves again. The damp, almost sweet scent of the sliced kupernacle leaves that he had cut had grown less pungent since he had last cut them open with his blades.

“Have you been sleeping?” Luvele asked.

Nickel rubbed his eyes.

“Yes,” he complained. He sighed. “Actually, no, not enough.”

“Well, hurry up with the cutting, and go to sleep early today!” Luvele said. “They won’t let you on the hunt tomorrow unless you’re well-rested.”

“Yeah, you’re right,” Nickel said, nearly falling down in the bed of kupernacle leaves again, nearly falling to the side on the way down. He left a mark in the dirt where his blades cut a small furrow next to the plants. He continued the sweeping motion of hacking at the stems at the base of the kupernacle plants, trying to retain his sleepless focus. While he worked, he could feel Luvele’s eyes on him.

“Why haven’t you been sleeping enough?” Luvele asked. Nickel took a deep breath, dusting dirt from his tunic.

“I don’t know,” Nickel lied. “I’ve just been thinking a lot.”

“About what, boy?” Luvele asked.

Nickel grumbled incoherently.

“That doesn’t answer my question,” Luvele said. “I need to know why you took the place of Farrul and another boy today, but can’t keep it together for the work.”

Nickel closed his eyes.

“The Mother Hawk can bless you all she wants, but if you can’t put in the work, then you can’t follow Father Hawk to the hunt!”

“Aaaaaarghhh,” Nickel grumbled louder.

“If you can’t tell me the truth, then you’re out of here and into the stables,” Luvele said.

“Tell you the truth?” Nickel said, frowning. “If I just keep working, wouldn’t that be fine?”

“Stables,” Luvele asserted loudly, pointing at the cows ahead of the kupernacle plants behind her, past the arch of the remaining rusted metal roofing.

One of the cows, a yellow animal splotched in purple, gave a gentle moan from the stables’ clearing.

Nickel’s heart sank. It was always a hassle to take care of the cows and get down in the muck of that clearing’s thick dirt. The soil that had been amassed was concentrated in this part of the Thraíha settlement. Being outdoors, it was carefully confined to an area of the settlement where it was rammed together in a thick patch to buffer against the corrosive fog and where it wouldn’t spill onto the rock surface where it would be bound to dissipate.

“Please, I’ll finish my work here—I’m almost done,” Nickel complained.

“Too late,” Luvele said. “The sun should show any moment now.”

Nickel groaned. Sure enough, the sun appeared through the foggy atmosphere, a rare respite of greater transparency at the zenith of the foggy atmosphere. It shone through the large gaping hole above them in the structure of rising walls that made up the Thraíha farm.

Nickel walked out of the garden, knowing that the afternoon sun was the mark of the next work shift, now made unavailable to him by Luvele.

He walked into the muck of the stables, passing under the arch of the metal overhead and through a wooden gate into the muck of the stables. Stepping inside, the sickly pungent scent of the dirt hit his nostrils, causing them to flare as he cringed. It was a sickly but earthy smell. He preferred the thin sweetness of the kupernacle leaves. The walls of the metal enclave were closer to him now. They stretched over him, joining in a curve at the roof. They were thicker and covered more of the surrounding space than the air of the garden. The metallic scent of the rusty surfaces, splotched in brown, was strong, mixing with the dank sourness of the dirt to produce the mix of claustrophobia-inducing sensations that made Nickel hate working in the stables so much. The damp slushy feel of the dirt clung to his legs as he waded through it, causing the wet cloth of his pants to stick to his skin.

“Fuck you, Luvele,” Nickel muttered under his breath as he struggled towards the lazily lounging multicolored cows stranded at the end of the stable.

“I don’t know what that means, but I heard that!” Luvele called. The Thraíha only swore in Thraíha. The closest they shared with Nickel was “hell.”

“Ah, Farrul, good thing you’re here!” Luvele called. “Your friend Nickel decided that today was not a day to have slept.”

Nickel stopped walking through the muck, turning around to see Farrul enter from the other end of the farm, at the wall opposite the garden.

Nickel had learned from the book he’d stolen from the temple that it had formerly been one of the active nuclear power plants within the canyons that powered Hedonim before it became an AR hotspot. He hadn’t yet been able to read too much more, but he surmised from diagrams that the sprawling, looming enclaves of old, sheared-away steel were the carcasses of old extensions of the power plant or nearby buildings meant to support its operations. The twisted metal spires and enclaves had a grotesque appearance, leaving the whereabouts of its inhabitants and visitors shrouded in shadow and obscure spatial location.

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PREAMBLE:

Divination, dangling leaves, dickory, dickory

dangling dicks, flopping, a bee buzzing,

danger alert, drumming heartbeat,

darting through the air, running through the trees.


Cars, the ever-present vehicles, cankering, crass,

But efficient, a roaring convenience,

as omniscient as the rustling leaves and chirping birds

Internet, the interconnected network, a zooming cursor

Aimed at the human mind, boggling

and incessant, a virtuality inescapable, thorough

and distant, immediate but abstract, interconnected,

interwoven, immediate and inescapable,

An Ether hanging over us, creating Realms

Unseen, but apparent

The black screen, dead, but inviting, a tomb

of yesterday’s interactions, virtual phantoms, abstractions

and icons, a world slipping away, an abstracted

one reappearing,

empty promises and forgotten walks,

the smell of fresh leaves and ripe grass,

but another icon floating through the mind,

Processed alongside the abstractions of a digital

interface,

flickering to life from the dead screen.


EPILOUGE:

Amnesia, allowances for habit, forgotten melodies

that hurt as we dance to them, remembered

painful step after another

Amnesia, the impulse forged to keep us alive,

now keeping us complacent with the world.

2200 Blues Chapter 52: Part Four

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“I’m an agent of myself,” Steve grumbled. “I know what I want and why I want it.”

“Really?” shouted Nickel, his chest growing with a rising heat. He shook his head, scoffing. “Oh my God, your whole plan—get to Hedonim, use my hovercraft. I get why Farrul said you were so crazy, why Farrul hated your plan so much.”

“My plan is why you’re here!” Steve growled.

“So what?” Nickel hissed. “I’m supposed to go along with and help your addiction? Help you get another digital hit?”

“Listen, I’ve seen a lot more than you,” Steve said. “I have years ahead of you. I’ve seen war and famine.”

“Really?” Nickel shrieked. “What is that supposed to mean? Because you’re older, all your plans and ideas are justified?”

“I know what gets us out of this mess,” Steve said. He pointed a stubby finger at Nickel. “You belong in the Ether too. It’s the only place where people like us can find the help we need and live a life worth living.”

“How would you know what a ‘life worth living’ would be?” Nickel said.

“You’ve got spirit,” Steve said, “but that don’t count for years.” He pointed at his temple. “That’s where I’m ahead of you. I can see further ahead.”

“Oh, fuck off with that,” Nickel sneered. “You’ve just had more time to get your head stuck in the Ether.”

“Nickel, I’m trying to help you!” Steve growled. “That’s all I’ve ever done.”

Nickel froze on the verge of retort, caught off guard by Steve’s comment. He felt a pang of guilt that was quickly subsumed by the outrage he felt at Steve.

“Aaaaaargh,” grumbled Nickel as he dropped his head into his palms, rubbing his forehead.

“Why can’t you see?” Nickel said between his fingers. “This wasn’t going anywhere. You acted like I was the key. It seemed like you were really just thinking about my hovercraft.”

“You know what you sound like?” Steve said. “You sound like those Luddite party members who just want to take away our freedoms.”

“What?!” Nickel exclaimed, ripping his hands away from his face.

“Yeah,” Steve said, nodding his head, frowning at Nickel. Now he crossed his arms. The familiar old man was now a stranger to Nickel. The face that had shown him warmth so much was now a wall to Nickel, a wall of misunderstanding and ignorance that Nickel wanted so desperately to break through but couldn’t.

“I’ve heard everything you’re going to say!” Steve asserted, weighing his finger he used to point at Nickel. “Those party members have been saying all that for far longer than you’ve been alive! They’re afraid of anyone who looks like a genetic human, and they think that because of that, we need to go back to the Stone Ages. They don’t want anyone in the Ether.”

Nickel’s mouth dropped in astonishment. “What does anything I said have to do with that?”

“Listen, kid,” Steve said, wagging his finger in the air. “I got years on you, seen more than you’d think to know because you haven’t seen it yet! I don’t have that much schooling, but I’ve learned from those smarter and older than me!—believe it or not—that the world gets torn down by those who want to take away our freedoms and those that want to keep them.”

“You think you’re free in the Ether?” Nickel screamed.

“I’m freer than I would be,” Steve said. “Anyone who says that we don’t need to get rid of the Ether is really trying to take away my freedom!”

“You’re a fucking idiot,” Nickel snarled, walking around Steve towards the entrance of the hut that he and Steve came through.

“You know it’s true,” grumbled Steve. “It’s why you were in that hovercraft.”

That’s why I don’t want to go back, Nickel thought.

“But you don’t get that,” Nickel whispered.

“That’s why you met us, right?” called Steve. “To help us out. So we could help each other out? But I guess you don’t want to do that even after everything I did for you!”

Nickel closed the flaps of the hut entrance behind him without looking back. He breathed heavily, his heart pounding. A film of tears formed in his eyes, creating a haze over the sight of the orange fog and the neighboring huts and caves it shrouded.

“Ungrateful little shit!” came Steve’s voice, echoing from inside the hut walls. “Just like Farrul! You think you’re better than me? You’re just as hooked to the Ether as I am! Get back in the hovercraft! Stay in it and see if you stay out of the Ether.”

Nickel balled his fists in anger. He gritted his teeth, wanting to say something but too overwhelmed by anguish and outrage to do so. He knew Steve was right. If he stayed in the hovercraft a night, he’d be pulled to the Ether in heartbeats. It didn’t mean he wanted to for the rest of his life.

“You’re gonna leave me here to die?” Steve called. “The Thraíha can’t use me! I’m gonna die in these canyons!”

2200 Blues Chapter 52: Part Three

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Steve stepped back and hunched over, drawing his hands, including the one held in his sling, towards his face, drawing attention to his wide eyes and the words coming out of his gaping mouth.

“I’ve been around before the Ether!” Steve rasped in a quieter but more exasperated and emphatic tone. “Remember? I’ve got years on you! I’ve seen more—a better understanding. I’ve seen the world before the Ether. Wasn’t worth saving.”

“Back before the Ether, before a single Ether for the whole world, we were trying to find ourselves in our separate screens. Interlinked but separate. There was no way to see the world, see how and why it was falling apart. Many ways! You couldn’t get anywhere! You didn’t know what to believe about the wars! Except to hope you didn’t get drafted with the nuclear arsenal!”

“We went through televisor after televisor. They got better, and you felt better for what you saw on the screen, but it wasn’t enough. You still had to step outside, deal with the world fogging up with pollution even outside the Atlantic canyons! Can you believe that? And ya’ didn’t know what to believe.”

“Then the Ether came online,” Steve said, his eyes becoming softer but remaining wide in a kind of ecstasy. “It changed everything! You could finally leave the world forever! Without getting killed or killing yourself. And you knew what to think!” Steve smiled. “And look for in the world. How to see the world—it was the world. It was now all there was to see!”

“I’ve known that I can get back there,” Steve husked. “I always thank the Lord of technology for that, for giving me a second chance at living my life.”

“It’s a better world than the one we have,” Steve said. “I was twenty-four when the Ether Realms were created. As soon as I joined Realm Three, my life changed forever. I had a way to see the world. I could understand my place in it. Understand the future.”

“Give me more pleasure than I could want, more women than existed in real life. I could try every face I could imagine. Real or not.”

“Then it was taken away from me!” Steve snarled. “The expedition ship I was a cook on was supposed to deliver us to a greater Ether artifact—a beacon for greater connection to the Ether. I was supposed to become the Ether!”

“We plumbed the sky to clear it from mining silicon, and we were lost!”

“I see the million faces I lost and the singing sorceress, Nickel! She’s calling to me!” Steve waved his hands aggressively towards himself. “Hedonim is all I have!” Steve leaned his head and torso towards Nickel as he spoke those last words.

Nickel backed away, leaning further into his cot, sitting upright on its frame and scooting away. He looked down at his legs, shaking his head and sighing.

“It’s all you have too!” Steve protested. “Why do you think different now? Why don’t you want to go to Hedonim anymore?”

Nickel had followed a crazed, desperate old man bereft of a livelihood and clinging to the Ether. Farrul had told him that Steve was crazy, and Nickel could see the inkling of that expression. But Farrul wanted to return to the Ether as well, just abandoning Steve while he was at it.

“I don’t want to go back,” Nickel said.

“You’re not going back to the Eagle!” shouted Steve. “You’re going somewhere new! Hedonim is new!”

“I don’t feel whole in the Ether,” Nickel said. “I do for a while, but it always leaves me empty. You may have felt connected in a Realm, but I didn’t. It’s been so long since you were in the Ether, Steve! A lot has changed!”

“Nothing has changed!” Steve said. “Except that I’ve been without the Ether for longer. I knew what it was like! The Ether was a dream, a luxury that I may have been able to access if I could find a terminal I could afford to pay for. Then the Ether-banks came out. They were so big—as big as a house!”

“Did you buy one of those?” interrupted Nickel. “Is that how you used the Ether?”

“I did when I could,” Steve said. “I rented out the banks that other people, richer people, bought. I wanted that so bad.” Steve motioned with his hands, clawing the air towards his chest. “The phones and computers I had then were too small for all of the Ether Realms.”

“We needed something bigger,” Steve said. “Something that could let me be in the Ether longer than a few hours. I needed a device that could be with me always.”

Steve stared at Nickel with wide-open eyes, silent as if he was impressing that need of his onto Nickel, waiting until it registered in Nickel’s mind.

Nickel opened his mouth slightly to speak, closed it in fear. He clamped his mouth shut, weighing Steve’s story and the question Nickel wanted to ask in turn—the one he was afraid to ask.

“Well,” Nickel said, gulping, “did you get that device?”

Steve’s eyes stretched, becoming glazed as his face relaxed, loosening as his face became slack, a delirious slight smile forming on his face. He extended his back, raising his head higher, drawing back from the close proximity to Nickel’s face. His smile grew wider, though his lips barely strayed from each other, only slightly opening. He smiled wider, and his face slackened even more.

“I did,” Steve muttered in a voice much softer than before, nodding his head. “Two years after the Ether Realms went online, everything changed. That’s when the first hovercraft came out.”

It was like a bar of solid ice slid down Nickel’s chest, freezing the innards of his stomach while twisting them in knots. Nickel felt the edges of his mouth weighing down in a somber frown.

“It changed everything,” Steve said, almost in a whisper. “It was an Ether-bank and an aircraft all in one. You could finally bring the Ether with you everywhere. You could live in the Ether!” Steve shook his hands, nearly bouncing up and down in giddiness.

Nickel’s mind swarmed with buzzing. His thoughts spun around, barely swimming through the cascading hot flashes of memory and the accompanying confused and agitated emotions that accompanied them.

“Well, I,” Nickel started before breaking into a nervous chuckle as his face melted in apprehension. “I never thought of my hovercraft that way all this time… all these years.”

All the time lost to the hovercraft, all of his life lost to the hovercraft. Year after year since the age of twelve, when he could first fly one. The bright flashes of light that surrounded him in the hovercraft; its screens waking to life the sunrise of the only world he really inhabited.

“That’s why I need you, Nickel,” Steve husked, coming hard on the middle of the sentence, heaving his chest in a wheeze at the middle of the sentence, emphasizing it with a big smile. As he spoke, he stooped closer to Nickel again, moving his hands down the air as if he was about to squeeze him. “I haven’t been inside a hovercraft in so long! Until you came into my life!”

Nickel’s heart nearly stopped. His face steeled over, and his frown deepened. He felt as if his whole body froze as dread creeped ever so further through him. Steve’s words smarted through Nickel’s mind, forming a shocking revelation that sent the icicle hanging in his chest plummeting further into his gut, causing a painful constriction and flare at its impact.

“You saved my life, Nickel,” Steve croaked, his voice broken up by a lilting mirth that edged on laughter. His smile was bigger now, his crooked stained teeth showing wide across his gums. He brought both of his palms up, holding the sides of Nickel’s face with them. The cold, calloused hands, marked by faint lines of worn use and age, touched Nickel’s cheeks.

“You gave me a chance to go back to the Ether,” Steve said. “To live a life again.”

“B-b-but this is life,” stammered Nickel. “We’re living right now. That’s what we’ve been doing these two months, Steve.” Nickel’s heart began to thud loudly.

Steve looked at Nickel with an empty, disbelieving expression. He frowned in disbelief.

“What are you talking about?” Steve grumbled. “There’s no living here,” he said, waving around the nearby area with his hands, turning his body with the motion. “I thought I told you when I first met you—the orange fog makes you see things.”

“Are you talking about me or the Thraíha?” Nickel asked in a louder voice, crossing his arms. He still couldn’t keep the shakiness out of his voice, but he spoke louder.

“Is there really a difference?” Steve asked, cocking his head to the side and giving Nickel a skeptical side-long glance with arched eyebrows.

Nickel’s face contorted in the inklings of a defensive response but stopped short of opening his mouth.

“Before we crashed your hovercraft, I think yes,” Steve said, nodding. “Two months later, I think no.”

Nickel frowned, and the edges of his mouth twitched. But he still didn’t respond yet.

“Not wrong, am I?” Steve said, shrugging his shoulders.

“You—” Nickel started, breaking into an exasperated scoff. He shook his head. He knew what he had learned from the Thraíha—a way of life Steve seemed not to understand. It seemed Steve may have been so incapacitated or unconscious during his stay with the Thraíha shamans that he hadn’t been able to live with the Thraíha lifestyle and follow their rituals of living as Nickel had. Although Nickel couldn’t tell if it would have made a difference for Steve. If he wasn’t already too corrupted by the Ether. If Nickel journeyed to Hedonim, would he wind up like Steve as well?

“You don’t understand, Steve,” Nickel said. This was the first conversation where he addressed Steve by his name. He never felt inclined to speak with him on terms other than following and working together for survival. “I’ve lived in the Ether too… I mean, you don’t get to be me, so distracted by screens that I don’t notice my hovercraft getting pulled into a windstorm in the middle of nowhere on low fuel—without living in the Ether for a long time!”

Steve nodded. “I know,” he said.

“You know,” Nickel repeated in a suspicious tone. He sighed. Was that why Steve joined Nickel? Why he took him under his wing? Why he helped him so much? Nickel was afraid to ask. “You said you helped me and Farrul,” started Nickel, watching the moon dial tucked under a car across from him, “because you couldn’t help your sister—because we remind you of her.”

Steve hesitated, and Nickel eyed him, knowing he’d asked a sensitive question but yearning to know the answer to the statement he’d really posed as a question.

“You’re like my sister,” Steve said. “That’s why…”

Nickel frowned, unconvinced. “Really?” Nickel said in a louder voice. “Tell me the truth! Is it that or that you’re addicted to the Ether?”

2200 Blues Chapter 52: Part Two

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“You don’t know?” said Nickel. “What did the Thraíha say?”

“They had me stay with their shaman for a good while,” Steve said. “I don’t know where else I can go. They tried to mend it the best they could, but herbs and massages are all they have. Unless I can get a surgeon, this is it for my arm.”

Nickel felt like his heart dropped to the bottom of his stomach. His face grew solemn, and he looked at Steve’s arm, unable to say anything.

“It’s okay,” Steve said. “All I can do is move on. I’m used to it.”

“I’m sorry for joking about your arm,” Nickel muttered in a soft tone, meeting Steve’s eyes once again. “I didn’t know it was—”

“Ahh, don’t worry about it,” Steve said, walking to Nickel and placing his good hand on Nickel’s shoulder. “I learned a long time ago to laugh at what hurts. Besides, I’ve got better things to care about—like how we’re going to get to Hedonim.”

“Right,” Nickel said, gulping. Steve removed his hand from Nickel’s shoulder, wobbling over to walk across the hut. “There’s a lot that happened while you were—gone.”

“I think I know,” Steve said. “I heard from the shamans when I was resting. You chose to go somewhere else on a pilgrimage with the Thraíha.”

“Somewhere else?” asked Nickel.

“To the Windings,” Steve said, “where they say the Flower of Life has reappeared.”

“What?” Nickel exclaimed, frowning in confusion. “What are you talking about?”

“Well, I want to go to Hedonim,” Steve said, stopping at the end of the hut to Nickel’s left. He turned to look at Nickel through bristling eyes. “I don’t know what ideas they’re putting in you, but that’s where I’m going—and I thought we were going to use your hovercraft to get as far as we could to Hedonim.”

“No, wait,” said Nickel. “You’re forgetting—”

“—before you broke your hovercraft,” Steve interrupted.

“It’s broken?” Nickel gasped, staring wide-eyed at Steve.

“That’s what they told me when I asked,” Steve said, looking at Nickel more intently. He walked back over to him.

“Is it done for?” Nickel muttered, nearly whispering. His heart hammered with growing worry. “No fixing it?”

“That’s what it seemed like,” Steve said. His voice had taken on a more serious tone. “The shamans told me that it was too dangerous for anyone other than the blacksmiths to go into it.”

“That doesn’t sound like there’s no hope for the Eagle,” Nickel said. “They don’t let anyone there. They pull kids out of the area where they keep it.”

“They said it’s cursed, Nickel,” Steve said, growling. “Sounds like their way of saying it’s done for.”

“No, it doesn’t!” Nickel shouted, getting agitated now. “It just means what they say—it’s a part of the Past World—that’s what they mean.”

Steve sighed in exasperation, shaking his head. “I don’t care what a hawk-worshipping cult thinks,” Steve said. “I just want to get to Hedonim—and I thought you did too.”

“I do!” protested Nickel.

“Well, it sounds like you’ve been too busy trying to be a Thraíha.”

Nickel reeled with outrage. He fumed through his nostrils, feeling shock, anger, and a stronger flash of alienation than he’d felt before. He also felt confused. The feeling of loss and emptiness in the canyons returned to him. No matter how much time he spent in the canyons or with the Thraíha, he was still here by a dangerous accident. Steve and Farrul were strangers—the first people he’d run into after his hovercraft was dragged down into the Atlantic with no way back up.

It was a state of panicked isolation that had gotten Nickel to form bonds with them. Their desperation had in turn tied them to Nickel. They were survivors struggling to escape their hostile environment.

A new question flashed across Nickel’s mind; had they been more interested in escaping the canyons or returning to the Ether Realms? They’d been obsessed with Hedonim from the start. Was that more because it was the best landmark to escape the canyons or because it was the best way to return to the Ether?

Did they have a choice either way?

The question dawned on Nickel like a rock sinking to the pit of his stomach.

“Hedonim is something different to the Thraíha, Nickel,” Steve said.

“What?”

“Not what I see or what you see. Thraíha think Hedonim will let them bring their God to ours.”

“Our God?” Nickel frowned. “What are you talking about?”

“The Ether is our God,” Steve said. “The singing sorceress. Hedonim is our temple.”

“No, no,” Nickel said, shaking his head. “I don’t understand what you’re saying.”

“Nickel,” Steve placed his left hand on Nickel’s cheek. His palm was cold, grubby, and calloused. “I’ve been alive so much longer than you—much longer. You’ve only known the Ether Realms. I remember the world before the Ether. Not much of a world to begin with.”

Steve’s hand pressed closer on Nickel’s face, causing him to wince, tilting his head to the left.

“You know why I stay with you and Farrul?” Steve said. His face was haggard. Though cleaner than before, his face was worn and seamed even more up close. His face held the desperation and emptiness Nickel had been so disturbed by—in himself, Steve, and Farrul when he’d first met them. Steve’s face was distraught—it carried the distraught wildness that Nickel had been so used to seeing in Steve, except now he could see it closer, understand it better for what it was. It was the wildness in his eyes, his heavy breath. More than just a desperation to survive but a desperate, unquenchable hunger. Steve had been in the canyons for a long time. He’d found himself tripping into visions of the singing sorceress for much longer than Nickel—even Farrul. He’d had much longer for Hedonim to percolate in his mind, much longer to be enticed.

“You know why I take so much care of you and Farrul?” Steve asked. His mouth puckered, remaining open, his warm breath washing over Nickel’s face. “Because I know what it’s like to be a kid alone without the Ether.”

Nickel cringed upon hearing those words. Without the Ether. He’d spent so long in his hovercraft numbing himself from that feeling. From the despair he’d felt at his addiction to the technology that numbed him from that same despair among others, tracing down the rabbit hole of his life—his mind.

“I know what it’s like to be a kid—lost in the world with no one to fend for but yourself. You know where I come from, Nickel?”

Nickel didn’t answer. He was frozen, his face a grimace, wary of the man before him but too afraid and shocked to let go.

“I was born on the Pacific outposts,” Steve said. “Trash heaps. I had nothing to lose, and it seemed nothing to gain either. My sister and I—little sister, five years younger than me. We were sent to work on the trash heaps off the Eastern Seaboard. My parents were indentured by the companies making the waste. We barely saw them, but when we did, it was me and my mom made me swear I’d protect my sister. We had to go work to help ma and da buy our freedom. In order to do that, we had to buy our way out by making more money for the company than normal.”

“I was always supposed to keep my eye on my sister when we were out working, but one day, I had to go dump my load for the trash compactors landing round our lot from the sky. My sister was struggling under her load, trying to carry it up to where she was supposed to. I told her to wait until I came back to help her, to stop carrying it because it was hurting her. When I came back around, she was higher up the heap than she’d been before, lying dead under a pile of trash. The trash inspector had told her to keep climbing up, keep carrying more of the load. I was ten. She was five!”

Nickel looked up at Steve solemnly. He had taken his palm off of Nickel’s cheek, but he looked on at him with wide eyes. Nickel’s mouth hung open. Before he could respond, Steve continued.

“This is where we are. Where I was. A world that had given up before I had anything to give up. That’s why I take care of you!” He growled. His eyes were wide, fuming in anger. “That’s why I take you and Farrul under me. Keep you safe. Because I—” he pointed his thumb at himself, “couldn’t do that for my sister.”

Nickel still couldn’t find himself to say anything in response, numbed by shock.

“This world has nowhere left to go,” Steve said. “Except the Ether… There’s nowhere left in the Ether for me to go… except for Hedonim.”

“I don’t want to go to Hedonim,” Nickel said in a shaky voice, shaking his head.

Steve frowned, turning his head askance, glowering at Nickel from the side.

“What are you talking about?” growled Steve.

Nickel felt a heat rising through his chest, threatening to block out the words he was chewing on, attempting to voice.

“I’ll just be going back to where I was before—inside my hovercraft, wasting away inside the Ether,” said Nickel. Steve’s face writhed with emotion. Nickel sighed and rubbed his face in his palms, continuing to shake his head. He spoke before Steve could cut him off:

“That’s what I did! I did that for so long! Sitting inside my hovercraft, almost never looking out the window, looking through my screens instead. Everything was through Realm Five. The wars I had to support or be mad at—the war zones I couldn’t fly through. I couldn’t even get through to where I wanted to. When I wasn’t watching random BideoSute videos or 3D pornos, it was the world on fire—the places to avoid, where to restock on supplies, at what aerial ports would associate me with the wrong war efforts. Which war efforts to pay for to get the resources I wanted. I can’t do it anymore!

Nickel glowered back at Steve, feeling the heat addle his politeness. Nickel breathed heavily. Steve, still wide-eyed, looked surprised.

“I can’t,” Nickel rasped in a quieter tone but still forceful. “I’m sick of it—I was sick of it before I crashed in the canyons—not just before we came to the Thraíha. I spent months in the Eagle, escaping from my problems—from the engineering program I was supposed to be in, trying to numb the pain but always feeling sick for doing it. But I had nowhere else to go, just the screens to keep me company. I’m done with that.”

“Which is why we’re going to Hedonim!” protested Steve.

“Hedonim is part of the Ether, you idiot!” snarled Nickel, pointing at Steve. He realized it was the first time he’d raised his voice at and spoke pejoratively to Steve. “It’s part of the same digital system! It’s just a different overlay!”

2200 Blues Chapter 52: Part One

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Nickel’s head throbbed no matter how long or hard he rubbed it against his palm or the flimsy cot. He tried to remember the words of the Oracle—the confidence she taught him in the face of the mystic visions, the ever-present force of the acht-chi. He wasn’t quite ready to see her yet. Theren had to sequester Nickel inside his sleeping hut to keep him away from Li’s demands for him to be held at the smelting station for interrogation alongside the new foreigner who’d encroached upon Thraíha grounds. While Theren worked out his gripes with Li and with the tribal authorities to deal with the new visitor, Nickel was to stay inside the hut alone as the rest of his cohort were either out hunting like Farrul or dealing with the tumult of the new visitor.

Nickel had stayed in the canyons for five months. Outside of the Thraíha culture, all he’d known were Steve and Farrul, an eclectic duo from far corners of the Ether, as far from each other as they were from Nickel.

He wondered who this new visitor was and where he came from. The first people he’d seen since exiting his hovercraft residence of stasis were all those he’d met in the Atlantic Canyons. The relief he felt with interacting with humans and forming relationships was mingled with an ache for the familiar. He yearned for someone from the U.R. colonies, let alone the colony he grew up on. He yearned for someone who could understand and relate to more of his background—better understand his fears beyond the one of immediate survival. The anguish of losing his virtual hovercraft home and the panic of bare survival had once consumed him.

Now that he had found a reliable roof over his head and food to feed him, his mind had reopened the crevice of longing that had been gaping open when he had been cruising on his hovercraft.

While milder now that he had found company and a regiment, there was more he was searching for.

The visions he’d had, while terrifying and simulating the brink of death each time, had brought him closer to a larger perspective—an openness he couldn’t quite describe or even begin to comprehend. It was a consciousness without a form—a form he desperately wanted to reach, more so after his trip with Theren in the underground tomb.

Nickel had since calmed down from the delirious stupor he’d emerged from the cave in. He’d found the Thraíha culture he inhabited to be more attuned to a spirit world—more conducive to the visions and mirages stimulated by the fog. However, his throat still burned and was scratchy from all the screaming he’d done in the tomb.

Breathe. The Oracle’s voice was crystal clear in his mind. Pump your chest like Father Hawk before a flight. Her words guided him through the acht-chi trance he’d done with her. Breathe slowly and deeply through your nostrils. Reminding himself of her words had gotten him to calm himself, but he still felt at a loss to make sense of the old man at the table, the Last Supper, and the terrifying explosion of the atomic bomb.

He still couldn’t shake the paranoia. When he’d first left the U.R. on his hovercraft, he’d been fleeing from a world order on the brink of collapse. Here in the canyons, he found himself on the edges and outskirts of that collapse. The whispers of a collapsing—or an already collapsed world—teased at him.

He knew he looked like an artificial human to many of the U.R. He looked like the Pan Asian stock of genetically engineered humans, many sent to the U.R. colonies. In the ancient religious rat race, there was always another to fear.

He wanted to eventually escape the canyons, but what answer would he find to that situation—the experiences he held from the past?

Nickel squeezed his eyes, shaking his head and sighing. He rolled over on his cot, rubbing his eyes. An overwhelming anxiety threatened to engulf him whenever he was still or silent enough to think through the reservoir of thoughts and unprocessed dilemmas and experiences flitting through the back of his mind.

He reached over the side of the cot, grabbing at the book he’d stowed away underneath it. He plopped it on his bed in front of his chest as he lay stomach down on the cot. The book was open to a random page.

Nickel began flipping through the pages, scanning the bodies of text and the occasional diagrams interrupting them. He needed to take his mind off of his mind, and he searched for the right thing to do the job.

Nuclear Power Plant Construction Phase: 2099-2111

A gentle shiver ran through his scalp as he perused the starting page of this chapter. He had his finger at the corner of the page, hesitating to turn it over. He realized it was the same trepidation that had put him off opening the book.

From the moment he discovered it inside the temple’s wind tunnels and read its title, he’d known it held answers about the history of the canyons, the Hedonim project before the nuclear accident. It would give him answers he was looking for—help him piece together history and form insights about Hedonim. It would help him find a path to Hedonim besides the supernatural insights and limited geographical knowledge of the Thraíha.

He turned the page, flipping it over, but just before, a familiar voice called to him.

“Nickel,” came an old man’s voice, rasping with an uncleared throat. Nickel closed the book and looked up wide-eyed.

Steve looked at him from across the room in a long, flowing tunic instead of his grubby and stained aerial worker’s clothing. His left arm hung in a splinter of bandaged cloth. His long gray-white beard was even longer than it had been before he, Nickel, and Farrul had crashed Nickel’s hovercraft into the Thraíha compound.

His face was cleaner than when they’d last been together. His wrinkles and lines were crisper. His eyes, though wearier looking with his eyelids closer to one another, were beaming with a warm light. The wide-reaching, fuzzy, and hazy lines of his beard stretched to the side in a slowly stretching smile.

“At least one of us looks better than the last time we met,” Steve called, grinning and letting out a dry chuckle.

Silence followed as Nickel opened his mouth in a small “o,” too dumbfounded to speak. A rush of emotions flowed through him, mingling with surprise, fear, and the memories he’d formed with Steve. Seeing him here reminded him that despite the hostilities, desolation, and alienation of the Atlantic Canyons, it still held a semblance of home—and a familiarity bestowed by the man standing before him who’d given him warmth and care when Nickel had found himself all alone—without whom Nickel wouldn’t have been here, having traversed this far into the canyons or found the Thraíha.

“I was worried about you,” Nickel muttered. He felt suddenly bashful, shied by his fluttering heart and the wave of emotions he felt. A clatter of Thraíha and their hunting gear resounded across the walls of the huts; back from a hunt, though Nickel could barely recognize the source of the clapping sounds and beats of thrumming feet. “I didn’t know when I would see you,” Nickel said, letting out a nervous chuckle. He rolled his legs off the side of the cot, sitting himself up on its surface. “They told me you were seriously hurt, that I couldn’t visit you.”

“Well, the Thraíha really are serious ’bout their quarantine laws, aren’t they?” Steve asked, chuckling again. He shook his head. “They’ve lost their minds in the fog more’n me, Nickel! Believe in spirits and magic hawks, can ya’ believe that?”

The sides of Nickel’s mouth stretched high across his face into a wide grin. He couldn’t stop smiling, looking at Steve. His exuberance was overjoyous, overflowing.

“Well, are you going to stop smiling and come over here to help an old man walk acro—”

He need not finish the words, for Nickel leaped off of his cot, rushing at Steve, pushing the words out of his mouth in surprise.

Nickel grabbed him in a giant hug, wrapping both of his arms around Steve, careful to keep his left arm wrapped around his waist below his left arm hung in a sling.

Steve gasped, staggering back slightly as he shifted his feet ever so slightly. Nickel pressed the side of his face firmly into Steve’s tunic, savoring his presence.

Steve wheezed and emitted soft mutters, slowly inching back on his heels. He didn’t wrap his arms around Nickel in return. Understanding that, feeling a jolt of self-consciousness, Nickel let go of his arms around Steve, taking steps backward to view Steve’s disposition better.

Steve closed his eyes, wincing as he bit his lower lip, expressing pain and discomfort.

“Ohh! I’m sorry!” Nickel exclaimed.

“Ss’ okay,” Steve muttered under ragged breaths. “Good thing you didn’t hug my hurt hand over here.” He wiggled his left arm in the air.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you,” Nickel said, taking steps closer to Steve.

“I know you didn’t,” Steve snapped, grunting as he shifted his weight. He smiled and eyed Nickel curiously. “Remember, I’ve been living in the canyons outside of hovercraft longer’n you.”

They both chuckled; Steve louder.

“I’ve had my share of injuries to go around,” Steve husked.

“What happened to your arm?” Nickel asked. “I ran like hell out of the hovercraft when the Thraíha ambushed. I didn’t see where you went after that—or what happened to you.”

“Ahggh,” Steve said, nodding his head. “Feels like ages ago… But so does yesterday… We split up, remember?”

The night of the Thraíha ambush came rushing back to Nickel, the stark and panicked memories.

“Ohh yeah,” Nickel said. “Farrul and I were supposed to run away together… Where did you run?”

“As far back away from you,” Steve said. “I went around the back of the Thraíha’s walls. Didn’t see a pile of rocks in the dark and—” Steve raised his left arm. “—that’s how this happened. Hurt worse than anything in years. I’ve been real careful to take care of myself here—stay safe in this world of rocks—and what do you know—I broke my arm falling on a pile of rocks.”

Nickel chuckled, and Steve smiled, causing Nickel to laugh even harder.

“Well, at least you got somewhere away from the flagpole,” Nickel said, grinning. “Looks like your arm turned into a pile rocks too!”

“Aaaaaaaaaarghhhhh!” Steve roared, feigning outrage. He took a few steps closer to Nickel, pretending to swat at him with his good arm. “Too soon! Too soon!”

Nickel giggled, walking back a few steps to lean on his cot.

“Where do you think you’re going?” Steve rasped through a grin.

“I’m sorry,” Nickel said through laughter. “But you’re okay, right?” Nickel’s smile faltered as he looked at Steve’s right arm. “Will it be back to normal?”

“Ah, this?” Steve rumbled as he raised his right arm and looked down at it. “This we don’t know.”

Nickel’s heart sank. He pursed his lips, feeling embarrassed for making light of Steve’s injury.

Update: Chapter 51 Part One and Part Two Available Now

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To clarify:

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2200 Blues Chapter 51: Part Two

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The corrosive weight of sitting slithered around his hips and up his spine, seeping through his body like he had been seated for an eternity—another mark of the hovercraft.

“Thousands of years of the second,” the old man said, pointing two fingers in the air, “most powerful technology, religious dogma.”

A cataclysmic shattering reared through the earth behind the table. The sky was nearly comprised entirely of dust and rubble, an ocean frothing at the very height of Nickel’s vision.

“Undone, denied by the sins of fathers’ fathers’ fathers’ fathers’…………….”

The body of flying dirt rippled over, joining the skyline entirely. The curtain of dirt grew warmer, its color lighter as a brightness began to grow at its center.

“The rape of the soul gone too long, we replaced the technologies of the mind with technologies of the eyes.”

As the growing light behind the curtain of dirt spread throughout its thickness, silhouettes of rectangles and squares formed across the dirt, wrapping around its curvature.

“Nickel, let’s go!” called Theren. His voice came from the far right, a dull noise. A pale halo of light grew around the old man. It was a beam of light coming from a hatchway that Theren was slowly opening from the far right corner of the cavern ahead.

The growing light dulled the image of the old man and his seated accomplices, grazing Nickel. He cowered, cringing at the pale light touching him.

“Come on!” Theren shouted. He was just barely visible against the thickening wall of light he stood against in front of the hatch that he opened. “What are you waiting for?” he called helplessly.

“Will you leave me?” rasped the old man. Looking away from the pale light at the hatchway, the image of the old man resumed its resolution, becoming clearer to Nickel once again. Who did he want to disappoint?

“I don’t know,” said Nickel. To whom did he want his resolve to matter more to? His young Thraíha guide or this phantom of a Thraíha ancestor?

“You’ve been invited to my private mass,” the old man said in a lower voice. He took a sip of his blood-dripping glass. “The authorities of history have let you in here— let me in here. Will you not honor my Eucharist?”

The wall of dirt fizzed like bursting chemicals, compounded by the force of the bomb rearing the earth apart.

“The quick deaths fueled the empire of dreams,” the old man said. “That’s why the slow death of the soul is preferred.”

The glowing rectangles curving around the wall of dirt grew brighter. As they brightened like ascending suns, they appeared like the screens that Nickel had been used to viewing in his hovercraft, but inverted; instead of curving inward around him, they curved outwards, against the wall of dirt that had neared the dining table so much that spittle of flying dirt shot out at the old man and his accomplices’ heads. A clump of dirt dropped into his wine glass of dark red blood.

“The forces of nature and desire denied so long were stripped from their bondage, and their abundance turned into a new bondage!”

The light of the bomb’s explosion made the ephemeral hovercraft screens glow even brighter.

“They made a whore of Mary Magdalene!” the old man screamed. A large flowing streak of wispy light emerged from the halo-like screens, flowing like a serpent, as wispy as smoke.

“The burster children of men sucking the lurid milk of her bosom— the milk of Hedonim!”

The light grew brighter, tinging more of the flying dirt, now cascading over the shoulders of the men, coating the table in a shower of dirt and rubble.

The accomplices unfroze, shouting at one another, their pre-existing argument resuming. As more dirt splashed against their faces, they whirled around to face the oncoming waves, gasping and crying out in horror.

By then it was too late. The atomic blast sheared through the table, making its seated inhabitants and food disappear in a blinding flash of light that soon overpassed the hovering screen-like images.

The trailing wisp of smoke burned hot in the oasis of exploding light, morphing yet again into the familiar image of Nickel’s dreams: the singing sorceress. The seductive enigma of her form materialized out of the smoke. She was long as a boa constrictor, as large as a beast, and as shapely as the women of Nickel’s dreams.

A shearing pain erupted inside Nickel’s chest as she locked the burning pits of her eyes with his. She swam towards him, her naked body writhing in the air.

Her jaws opened, growing as wide as a dragon’s, sinking over him as everything grew to an unbearably hot and blinding light. The screams that had become deafening were all Nickel could sense when the light finally faded.

The remaining of his senses returned bit by bit. The screaming had subsided, save for one, though to whom it belonged remained to be seen.

Nickel sat on a chair like he had before, but the table before him was broken in half, its cleaved halves— the shards of their edges meeting below at the middle of the rock floor. There was a fallen metal cross, stained by black marks with only remnants of embossed patterns remaining on its surface. There was no pitch black as the contours of its rock surfaces were clearly visible.

Sitting across from Nickel, in front of the shattered remains of the dining table, was a skeleton, wrapped in withered rags around its arms, torso, and pelvis.

On its lap, sitting on bone and withered cloth, was a large tome. Its pages were yellow, crumpled but torn at the edges, streaked in dirt. Its leather binding and jacket were equally withered. Embossed face up on the cover were the words:

HOLY BIBLE

A burning sensation rippled through Nickel’s throat, making it unbreathable. It was then that Nickel realized that the last screaming voice he heard was not another’s— but his.

2200 Blues Chapter 51: Part One

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They emerged in a dark room. As soon as Nickel started walking behind Theren, the humidity of this space hit him. It was a far warmer feeling of wetness than the viscous moisture of the fog he was used to, fleeting whispers of moisture. The space around him reeked with a dank and soggy scent hinting at a body of water.

“Two Thraíha visiting me, rruh,” crooned the old man, his voice quieter but sharper, more immediate, closer to Nickel.

Theren turned to look at him, just barely discernible under the circle of illuminated light coming through the opening in the ceiling. He put his fingers to his lips to silence Nickel. Then he whirled around and stepped forth into the darkness, disappearing entirely.

The blackness was omnipresent. Nickel turned his hands over, flicking his wrists to see what contours and edges of them he could in the fading light. He stumbled forward to stay closer to Theren, whom he couldn’t see. His footsteps thumped in the dark, their dull echoes broken by the narrowness of the space. In just a few footsteps, he disappeared, every remaining line of his body melting into the all-consuming black. The humming clamor of the fighting Thraíha disappeared from far above as he walked further into the darkness.

Fear coursed through him, jolting the nerves throughout his body. He could no longer see or hear himself—not his footsteps, not the gentle ruffling of his robe against his bare skin. He couldn’t feel the book he’d kept close against his body under his clothes with great discomfort. But the fear frazzling his nerves kept him moving. He could feel the thrust of muscles and limbs he could not see, taking steps at a time. The fear moved him, and the fear was what he felt buzzing at his soles where he could no longer feel the slightly bumpy surface of the rock.

Don’t leave me, Theren. Nickel kept moving, electricity moving up through his legs, down, pushing on to the earth, moving him to satiate the fear of being left behind in this cave that threatened to engulf him.

“Why do you pass through the sepulchre of forgotten dreams?” rasped the old man. The voice was like a gust, buzzing and threatening to blow Nickel over. He felt blood rushing to his side before a jolt of nervousness pushed the momentum of his legs back to the left side.

“Don’t say anything,” whispered Theren. The voice seemed not to come from a specific location in the space but from all around, stemming from Nickel’s mind, only heard in his mind.

The rush of vertigo continued, ebbing forward, impelling Nickel forward. The silence was as pitched as the surrounding darkness. The darkness and silence were a void pitching through Nickel’s eyes and ears. The buzzing fear was a vibrating presence within him, but it had no center or focal point. He couldn’t tell where his eyes were—if they were closed or open, it wouldn’t have made a difference. It was like he didn’t have eyelids to begin with.

“I’ve seen things you wouldn’t believe,” the old man hissed. “Things that would stop you dead. Things you don’t know I carry through my ages but that can still hurt you!”

A slithering noise reappeared, chiming like a rattlesnake. A shudder swept through Nickel’s consciousness. He felt tremors without feeling their physical focal points, like he was a rippling wave of air.

“The brothers of Abraham have been dead for almost a hundred years!” screamed the old man. “So I ask you,” he bellowed even louder, “WHY DO YOU PASS THROUGH THE TOMB OF BROKEN DREAMS?”

A shattering scream came from the right, losing its point of impact almost as soon as it appeared, turning into crisp cracklings that crackled through space with no clear direction.

“God is dead!” screamed the old man. He emitted a wheeze that crackled through the air like a gust of static. “He died between the Mediterranean Sea and—and the Jordan River!”

Screams erupted from everywhere. Human voices joined in shrill cries. They buzzed in a panoramic swarm, intensifying, resounding as if from within Nickel and from without.

“Yahweh! Mohammed! Jesus!” screamed the old man. “Killed in a bout of anger! Lying dead, wrestling in their arms!”

The screams turned to a hollow rendering, echoing and rising in volume. In these moments, Nickel only knew pain—a terrible crushing pain without a center, upon which he felt his body being directly crushed. It was a pain as familiar as the lurid trappings of the Ether. He felt the pain he felt whenever he’d been ensnared within the Ether, alone in his hovercraft, the pit deepening through his chest. Except instead of the rush of sensory thrill he’d felt before, he felt a hollow anguish engulfing him.

“Brothers and sisters killed by the texts!” the old man crooned.

The folding of air before a fire billowed before Nickel. The bright spark of a flame shot through the space, long and silent, wickering at the ends of a candle. The flame was smaller than what the volume of the billowing indicated.

The candles stood on a small silver plate, illuminating the gaunt, withered face of the crooning old man. His hair stood out over his scalp in sparse wispy strands. His jaw was angular, sharp despite the folds of sunken flesh just above his Adam’s apple.

Above his sharp, hooked nose were large eyes, creased at the edges by age but widened by receding eyelids so far back as if his eyes were about to fall out of their sockets.

Two blood-streaked, bulbous eyes were trained on a plate before him, slowly rising to meet Nickel’s sight. A thrilling tremor threatened to erupt in the air—and Nickel’s consciousness.

“Welcome to the Last Supper,” intoned the old man, the air rushing out of him like he was gasping. More sparks of shooting flames emerged to his sides, revealing candles and men seated to his right and left, positioned in various poses, looking in different directions and wearing various emotive expressions all trained upon each other. They were reacting to each other—in the middle of conversation. But they were frozen as still as marble statues, unblinking.

“We’ve eaten from the carcass of righteous flesh, torn asunder from endless pillage, rape, and conquest,” said the old man. He and his frozen accomplices were dressed in tunics lined in silvery patterns, old-fashioned attire like those worn by Templars of the twenty-first century. “We’ve drunk from the blood of countless enemies just to try and get a seat next to God.”

In the span of a blink that never occurred, the men surrounding the old man morphed into angry expressions. They were seated in aggressive postures, pointing fingers at one another, leaning into each other’s faces with wide-open mouths frothing with cries unheard, leaning away from assaults. Frozen in time.

The flames wavered, the candles next to the center blinking out before rippling up the air into existence once more.

The old man took a sip from his glass, letting its contents of thick, steely red blood stream through his lips. A soft buzzing appeared from the table as a few flies flitted over the dried, ragged meat of human flesh heaped upon the plates. They were heaved, torn apart, filled with gaping holes, entirely missing holes where they’d been carved out by knives and forks. Cracked and crisped at the edges. Cooked by war.

“You’ve walked upon the Last Supper of the United Republic’s grandfathers and their bastard brother of the East,” crooned the old man. “But you’re late to dinner!”

A gusty wind shrieked, sending a chill and blowing the baggy tunics of the men to the left. The candle flames rippled and wavered, still holding on to their longevity.

“Nearly two hundred years late!” the old man rasped. He glared at Nickel under two frowning, viscous eyebrows. His eyes were still bulbous, unfolded by his eyelids.

“You’ve died a hundred deaths to get here—thousands,” said the old man. “MILLIONS!” he continued.

Gunfire ricocheted behind the long dinner table. The faraway haze of fire and explosions drifted on the horizon. Missile fire rained down like slow lightning bolts.

“We stole the powers of God while seeking his salvation,” moaned the old man. His voice shook, his expression delirious. His chest heaved up and down. “We made a sacrilege of history and religion—all while fighting for them!”

A blinding flash of light grew like an exploding sunrise over the horizon. Only the ball of light grew into a pillar, expanding over the earth, growing and ever-expanding. A mushroom cloud darkened and rolled over the heavens.

A thunderous crackle ripped through the earth, louder than anything Nickel had heard before, crushing the world as shock waves of rubble and dust roiled over the earth.

“We killed God!” screamed the old man, his shrill voice just barely audible over the earth-shattering tumult. “Found new gods in his image, fought over them as the brothers of Abraham slipped into oblivion!”

The table was shuddering violently, the plates clattering in vibrating blurs. The cloud of dust rippling across the ground was nearing, increasing in height behind the table like an oncoming ocean wave.

“We abandoned our ideals, ripped the wombs out of our women! Castrated our men! Made the body a damned vessel for our politics!”

The dust billowed behind, blowing high into the air like a hurricane sweeping through.

“Come,” the old man said, patting the table before him, motioning towards the chair that materialized before the table. “Join me for the Eucharist of the future, condemned by the past!” The old man’s face stretched into a sickly smile, his cheeks and his gums widening across his face, splitting its sides.

He lifted a platter of dried, bloodied meat, carrying it over the table all the while continuing to stare at Nickel, unblinking. He placed the plate on the table, causing a soft clink of surfaces still audible over the roiling chaos.

“Come eat from the Last Supper of God before the Messiah of our dreams comes to kill us all!”

Momentum pushed Nickel through the air; the weight and strain of flesh returned as the force of momentum flashed through his limbs. The pain and horror of physical consciousness returned to him. The insecurity and shame of stumbling towards another human returned. The hatred of self and the sense of inadequacy he knew so well in the face of the other.

The other sat in front of him, looming, wrinkled, a waxing cursed body waiting to become a corpse. The old man’s body was taut with a domineering tension, waiting to spring upon Nickel, expressing his curse as he collapsed in the throes of death. The familiar nylon of his piloting uniform crinkled over Nickel’s skin. No longer in the Thraíha tunics he’d entered the cave in, he found himself in his jockey outfit worn when he was still living in his hovercraft. He crashed onto the chair, twisting his torso around its frame and sprawling his legs across the front of the chair.

2200 Blues Chapter 50: Part Two

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“Come on!” husked Nickel’s companion, tugging at his wrists, letting go to trot away. Nickel followed, and they snaked around the crowd and threw an alley in-between two stone huts. They climbed up boulders at the end of the alley, moving behind a building carved out of the rock. They crawled through a niche in the rock that was slightly depressed.

The niche darkened as they scooted further into it on their butts. The din quieted as they sunk into the cool darkness of the niche.

Nickel’s feet nearly hit the man as he stopped. Nickel splayed his feet out against the sides of the tunnel and pressed hard against their surfaces with his hands, to keep them in place from ramming into his guide.

“Wait,” muttered the Thraíha. A clattering sounded dully against the rock as Theren’s feet dropped through. He gracefully slid through the opening in the floor. He let the lower half of his body disappear through the hole, holding his torso above the hole with his hands he used to push against the floor of the tunnel next to the hole. He craned his neck to look around at Nickel, not appearing strained at all.

“Be careful,” he said, “don’t land too hard on your way down.”

“How far down is the bottom?” asked Nickel.

“Ahh, you made it down here,” came a voice from inside the cellar.

Nickel’s eyes widened and he frowned at Theren.

Theren shook his head.

“Don’t worry,” he said, “not bad company.”

“Are you standing on the bottom?” Nickel asked.

“Yeah, just hop down,” he said. “But we can’t stay long to talk or look around,” he added. “This is a short cut to get you back to the eastern quarters and your hut back in time.”

“Hey, watch where you’re coming!” bellowed a voice from below, within the underbelly. Theren froze. A gentle trickling emanated from the room below. “If you don’t come down here with a good reason—.” The voice was a loud baritone like that of an old man “—then, you’re coming down here to pay!”

“Don’t mind him,” Theren muttered under his breath. Nickel wanted to ask him who that man was, but felt paralyzed by a fear he couldn’t understand.

“The evil spirits are calling me!” crooned the old man. His voice warbled as he spoke, sounding like a moan. “If you come down, they’ll come through me! To you!

A sharp squeal of swiveling hinges cut through the room below the cavern floor, the noise sounding flat against the stone floor. Dead silence followed; the old man’s voice muted completely. Only the faint dripping resumed, quieted by long and slow intervals.

Nickel choked on his questions and fear, unable to voice them.

“Just follow me,” Theren said, shaking his head and signaling at the stone floor. “I forgot about him. I haven’t been down here in a long time. I honestly don’t know what it’ll look like down there……………but my legs are still standing on the ground below, so that’s a good sign.” He chuckled, turning his head slightly as to wait for Nickel to react.

Nickel said nothing, finding himself unable to lighten up. He didn’t know if Theren was serious or not. But his nonchalance and forced dry brittle cackling of forced laughter seemed to tell him otherwise.

Theren gave a soft grunt, heaving himself on his hands, sliding them outwards as he allowed more of his torso to slip through the opening. His feet patted the floor of the room below in dull thumps, muffled by the barrier of the tunnel, but sharply sounding amidst the rendered silence of the room below.

“Stay close by my side,” Theren wheezed as he slid his chest down through the hole. “Don’t stare at anything too long,” he added. “And you’ll be fine—”

“Why can’t we just go through the courtyard above ground?” complained Nickel. “This place gives me the creeps.”

“The other Thraíha are on to you Nickel,” Theren said. “Looks like the fighting up there is because we have a Cast-out in our midst.”

“A Cast-out?” said Nickel.

“The visitor—or intruder,” Theren said. “They’re going to look at you the same way until they sort it out. I can’t be seen with you either so this is the only way I can get out too. Just hurry up and follow me!

Theren slipped out through the hole entirely. Nickel put his legs through after him, extended them on the floor to slide out along his back.